Season 2 Recap The Jameson Vermillion Files
This if for all my fans who I have left waiting by not writing for several weeks this season, which you and I both really thought would have made it easier to write once I finally got the motivation to really start putting the virtual yet astoundingly metaphorically appropriate pen to paper. I figure all of you guys miss my casual knack for not knowing just how long a sentence or paragraph should be, whilst also attempting to just really ram in every way I can possibly think to say the same damn thing in every line running it on and on as people begin to wonder if I have ever heard of proper punctuation or making a coherent thought short and succinct. That is my main point, that I'm doing this for you, which totally isn't untrue despite the fact that I literally made the first paragraph of the last edition of this piece, which was really a 1.5 offseason insight, about the fact that I was doing it for me, which I stressed over and over again, that it was for me, and maybe that one was, but this one isn't... or is it? Who are you going to believe, me or me?
Now I may have started to notice a trend in my writing, I like the beginning of these things to really prepare you for what you are about to read. Personally I believe that this is because in my ripe old age of twenty eight I've seemingly lost the ability to hold a coherent thought for very long. This is a thing that has made me begin to wonder if I actually have some sort of undiagnosed add or adhd type something or another, where when I finally decide to just let it all out, it is mildly overwhelming and one thing hits me after another where I keep getting distracted and thrown off course and promise myself that I am going to add that in later on in the paragraph I'm going to write at some point in the piece even though I do not plan anything I write out ahead of time, have no semblance of structure and follow no guidelines. This ultimately leaves me mildly disappointed in finished products when I eventually do reread them and realize how much I left out or how little they actually say compared to how much I feel that I have said after I out so much time and effort into the whole ordeal but still managed more brain butchering than idea writing.
Now I'm also sippingmy favorite whiskey so I'm trying to knock this all out in one sitting, it's Redbreast twelve year old, great whiskey and its been a long work week, and I feel like I earned some of the good stuff instead of beer tonight. I mean I'm only on the first glass, even though I have been home from a twelve hour shift for two hours, Scrubs is playing in the background, which is awesome, my trusty cat Gunsmoke who anyone who religiously watches the pets channel in the Ducks locker room has seen is on my lap, dear diary I think I have finally got through the introduction, let's fucking get into it and talk about how the season went.
Alright I think I've briefly touched on the early season because of the mid-season call up, that really shook up and defined my personal season , so I will keep it brief and by brief I mean probably not that, because I am terrible at that, seriously have you even been paying attention? Also fuck the fourth wall, and fuck Hugh Jackman. Love you Dr. Cox!!!
Anyway we all know how I expected the season to go. You know max tpe running back, coming off a rookie DSFL season where I was snubbed for like every fucking possible reward but ranked all the way up there at the top in all relevant statistics. Yeah that was annoying, all I can say is the awards committee was bad and they should feel bad. Just kidding, love you! I'm really not though, feel bad. Back to the point, really expected to be up for most valuable player. Which six games thre hundred thirty yards, and no touchdowns probably wasn't going to work out quite like I had hoped. Hood news with all that, while my attention and focus wasn't as good and dialed in as I wanted it to be this season I still noticed that my Duck Buddies made it all the way to the playoffs where we ugh.. I'm gonna go with didn't... last year. I was happy to see a lot of the people i had interacted with and whose company I had enjoyed during my time here have success was nice. While I was extremely excited about the fact that I got paid a huge compliment by the Yellowknife Wraiths by them making me a rare mid-season callup, I would be lying if I said I didn't wish I could be on the virtual dot field with those guys too. Not that I wanted to be part of their success, that doesn't matter to me nearly as much as the sense of camaraderie that I feel I developed with many of them. I am very proud to have been a Duck and to see them go on without me was harder than I expected emotionally. I tried to check in and be present when I could, but anyone who read version 1.5 knows this was a rough season for me. I'm still devising my activity upswing but it has been harder to be involved. Even though I didn't miss any updates or point tasks, my mind and heart weren't all the way in it. Everything was a little rough this season and effort did not come as easy as my rookie season which now i feel like I'm trapped in this thought and can't find my way out of it so I am going to have to find a way to just make a solid point and the only thing I can think of instead is to do a poor segue.
I talked in version 1.5 about getting denied for the intern position with the Ducks, also not getting the media grader position. You would think I would have learned that the rejection is kind of annoying and I probably take it too personally and should stop applying to things because if it doesn't work out I'm going to get at least a little pissed off because I put a lot of thought and effort into putting myself out there and it really kinda fucking sucks. So anyway... instead of that I put myself out there and went for the DSFL intern position and it went about how I am sure me, you and my horde of cats expected and I didn't get it. So I've basically at this point decided I probably won't apply to anymore because what's the fucking point anyway? Fuck it all, fucking bullshit, fuck. So.. back on track I'm going for the Ducks intern position because if I am anything I am a man of conviction and morals. Even if the only real conviction i have is to passive aggressively put the word fuck in the article as much as possible, while also passive aggressively(or overtly I'm not even sure anymore) displaying my displeasure for those things I have previously portrayed in a negative light. Also, fuck.
Back to the actual season stuff after the callup, because I feel like should skip talking about the callup itself because I have talked about the callup a whole lot, but I suppose the callup was important, it was pretty callupy, extremely callupy, in fact it was the only mid-season callup I have ever seen, the best mid-season callup I have ever seen. Have I mentioned the callup? Fuck i suppose I should briefly talk about the callup. While it was an awesome experience and I wouldn't change anything, I don't think I ever want to do it again. Adjusting was honestly stressful, nobody sees it coming and you're just kinda smashed into the middle of things when everyone already has their expectations set and you are kind of the thing that jacked everything up, good or bad. Maybe I overthought literally every part of it and nobody even noticed i was there, which i suppose is business as usual in my life. Anyway I did feel a little out of place, so I think I would prefer that the way it plays out in the future would be more expected. I would prefer to be called up during the offseason, just because the shakeup is way harder than I expected.
Now my time on the yellowknife wraiths was marred by mediocre performances. While I had a decent five touchdowns through ten games on the ground and got my first career receiving touchdown, I only had about three hundred eighty five yards on the ground in the isfl, but two hundred and some change receiving yards. Altogether less than one thousand yards from scrimmage between the dsfl and isfl games. Very disappointing from my perspective, really wish I could have done a whole lot more. Hardly the start to my hall of fame career, but most running backs aren't even in the isfl at this point so.. fucking suck it!! We gonna tear it up next year! I'm sure we will pound the rock next year and not just stick to the passing game so much.. definitely a thing that might happen. I'm sure there won't be anymore eight carry games for me!
Yeah I've lost all train of thought at this point but I covered all the major points and issues. Great journal entry. Fuck.
This if for all my fans who I have left waiting by not writing for several weeks this season, which you and I both really thought would have made it easier to write once I finally got the motivation to really start putting the virtual yet astoundingly metaphorically appropriate pen to paper. I figure all of you guys miss my casual knack for not knowing just how long a sentence or paragraph should be, whilst also attempting to just really ram in every way I can possibly think to say the same damn thing in every line running it on and on as people begin to wonder if I have ever heard of proper punctuation or making a coherent thought short and succinct. That is my main point, that I'm doing this for you, which totally isn't untrue despite the fact that I literally made the first paragraph of the last edition of this piece, which was really a 1.5 offseason insight, about the fact that I was doing it for me, which I stressed over and over again, that it was for me, and maybe that one was, but this one isn't... or is it? Who are you going to believe, me or me?
Now I may have started to notice a trend in my writing, I like the beginning of these things to really prepare you for what you are about to read. Personally I believe that this is because in my ripe old age of twenty eight I've seemingly lost the ability to hold a coherent thought for very long. This is a thing that has made me begin to wonder if I actually have some sort of undiagnosed add or adhd type something or another, where when I finally decide to just let it all out, it is mildly overwhelming and one thing hits me after another where I keep getting distracted and thrown off course and promise myself that I am going to add that in later on in the paragraph I'm going to write at some point in the piece even though I do not plan anything I write out ahead of time, have no semblance of structure and follow no guidelines. This ultimately leaves me mildly disappointed in finished products when I eventually do reread them and realize how much I left out or how little they actually say compared to how much I feel that I have said after I out so much time and effort into the whole ordeal but still managed more brain butchering than idea writing.
Now I'm also sippingmy favorite whiskey so I'm trying to knock this all out in one sitting, it's Redbreast twelve year old, great whiskey and its been a long work week, and I feel like I earned some of the good stuff instead of beer tonight. I mean I'm only on the first glass, even though I have been home from a twelve hour shift for two hours, Scrubs is playing in the background, which is awesome, my trusty cat Gunsmoke who anyone who religiously watches the pets channel in the Ducks locker room has seen is on my lap, dear diary I think I have finally got through the introduction, let's fucking get into it and talk about how the season went.
Alright I think I've briefly touched on the early season because of the mid-season call up, that really shook up and defined my personal season , so I will keep it brief and by brief I mean probably not that, because I am terrible at that, seriously have you even been paying attention? Also fuck the fourth wall, and fuck Hugh Jackman. Love you Dr. Cox!!!
Anyway we all know how I expected the season to go. You know max tpe running back, coming off a rookie DSFL season where I was snubbed for like every fucking possible reward but ranked all the way up there at the top in all relevant statistics. Yeah that was annoying, all I can say is the awards committee was bad and they should feel bad. Just kidding, love you! I'm really not though, feel bad. Back to the point, really expected to be up for most valuable player. Which six games thre hundred thirty yards, and no touchdowns probably wasn't going to work out quite like I had hoped. Hood news with all that, while my attention and focus wasn't as good and dialed in as I wanted it to be this season I still noticed that my Duck Buddies made it all the way to the playoffs where we ugh.. I'm gonna go with didn't... last year. I was happy to see a lot of the people i had interacted with and whose company I had enjoyed during my time here have success was nice. While I was extremely excited about the fact that I got paid a huge compliment by the Yellowknife Wraiths by them making me a rare mid-season callup, I would be lying if I said I didn't wish I could be on the virtual dot field with those guys too. Not that I wanted to be part of their success, that doesn't matter to me nearly as much as the sense of camaraderie that I feel I developed with many of them. I am very proud to have been a Duck and to see them go on without me was harder than I expected emotionally. I tried to check in and be present when I could, but anyone who read version 1.5 knows this was a rough season for me. I'm still devising my activity upswing but it has been harder to be involved. Even though I didn't miss any updates or point tasks, my mind and heart weren't all the way in it. Everything was a little rough this season and effort did not come as easy as my rookie season which now i feel like I'm trapped in this thought and can't find my way out of it so I am going to have to find a way to just make a solid point and the only thing I can think of instead is to do a poor segue.
I talked in version 1.5 about getting denied for the intern position with the Ducks, also not getting the media grader position. You would think I would have learned that the rejection is kind of annoying and I probably take it too personally and should stop applying to things because if it doesn't work out I'm going to get at least a little pissed off because I put a lot of thought and effort into putting myself out there and it really kinda fucking sucks. So anyway... instead of that I put myself out there and went for the DSFL intern position and it went about how I am sure me, you and my horde of cats expected and I didn't get it. So I've basically at this point decided I probably won't apply to anymore because what's the fucking point anyway? Fuck it all, fucking bullshit, fuck. So.. back on track I'm going for the Ducks intern position because if I am anything I am a man of conviction and morals. Even if the only real conviction i have is to passive aggressively put the word fuck in the article as much as possible, while also passive aggressively(or overtly I'm not even sure anymore) displaying my displeasure for those things I have previously portrayed in a negative light. Also, fuck.
Back to the actual season stuff after the callup, because I feel like should skip talking about the callup itself because I have talked about the callup a whole lot, but I suppose the callup was important, it was pretty callupy, extremely callupy, in fact it was the only mid-season callup I have ever seen, the best mid-season callup I have ever seen. Have I mentioned the callup? Fuck i suppose I should briefly talk about the callup. While it was an awesome experience and I wouldn't change anything, I don't think I ever want to do it again. Adjusting was honestly stressful, nobody sees it coming and you're just kinda smashed into the middle of things when everyone already has their expectations set and you are kind of the thing that jacked everything up, good or bad. Maybe I overthought literally every part of it and nobody even noticed i was there, which i suppose is business as usual in my life. Anyway I did feel a little out of place, so I think I would prefer that the way it plays out in the future would be more expected. I would prefer to be called up during the offseason, just because the shakeup is way harder than I expected.
Now my time on the yellowknife wraiths was marred by mediocre performances. While I had a decent five touchdowns through ten games on the ground and got my first career receiving touchdown, I only had about three hundred eighty five yards on the ground in the isfl, but two hundred and some change receiving yards. Altogether less than one thousand yards from scrimmage between the dsfl and isfl games. Very disappointing from my perspective, really wish I could have done a whole lot more. Hardly the start to my hall of fame career, but most running backs aren't even in the isfl at this point so.. fucking suck it!! We gonna tear it up next year! I'm sure we will pound the rock next year and not just stick to the passing game so much.. definitely a thing that might happen. I'm sure there won't be anymore eight carry games for me!
Yeah I've lost all train of thought at this point but I covered all the major points and issues. Great journal entry. Fuck.
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