Offseason Point Task - 25th Anniversary Special

[Jiggly_333]

I have been here for three and a half years. I was an S1 player. I didn’t find it on reddit, I was annoyed by a casual friend into joining. Out of all my time in this league, I’m still not sure what the point differential is on how I feel about the NSFL. I’m not going to stop calling it that unless I’m forced to for rules reasons. But I have had some of the worst experiences of my life in this league. I’ve also met most of the people I currently consider friends through this league. So my entire experience here is a bit of a wash. I spent the last three years just before quarantine going to community college, feeling constantly alone and isolated by my surroundings and lack of social skills. I said it a few times, but I don’t know how I would’ve survived those three years without the NSFL and other sim leagues as an outlet. So I can’t possibly throw the NSFL away from my life, especially when I’m not even out of the woods yet in terms of building a real social life irl. So this league really does mean something to me, possibly more than I make it out to be or treat it to be. Staying on a regular schedule of some sort keeps me grounded in the world and helps me to focus on just completing tasks in general, so having the NSFL there to be something that I work at EVERY WEEK has been that sort of repetitive task that keeps me moving forward. I do all my updates on Monday, try to do my PTs on Tuesdays, or if I don’t finish then I try to get them done by Friday. Maintaining a regular writing schedule keeps me sharp and if only I could get myself to do that sort of regular writing for something actually creative I might finally be making money. At this point, I am almost completely checked out emotionally in this league. I talk to the people I care about, I avoid gen chat because after March I cannot go into gen chat without physically shaking with anxiety, and I mostly just post music in my LRs. I remember back when Ballerstorm refused to make a Discord server for the league because he wanted all of the interaction to be done on the forums and he was worried that the forums would get boring if everyone moved to Discord. He was right. And now we’re here, 25 seasons later. So much has changed, so little has changed. All my friends are dead. I’m too old.