I am, quite simply, tired.
I want to be exceedingly clear: I have so, so much love for this league. I believe this league has, at the end of the day, been a net positive part of my life. I have met some people, many people, who I would call dear friends here. (No, I do not feel any inclination to give a more detailed account of who these people are; I cannot stop those who choose to go that route, but my people know exactly who they are and how I feel.) And, truly, I have grown as a result of being a member of this league. So, I will say it again: I have a ton of love for this league, and, at the end of the day, the league means a great deal to me as a positive element of my life.
Now, returning to my original point: I am tired. That, of course, is not all the fault of this league; I am kept quite busy with law school, I am desperately behind in my research work, I am slowly and nervously working towards submitting an application for a political science PhD program, and I am newly married, so my life is excessively hectic as a general matter. That said, I cannot and will not pretend that this league, at times, is draining. Perhaps this is a result of my approach; I have been a general manager for eight of my now ten seasons here and spent nine as a member of our update team. Some weeks I think I spend more time looking at league-related spreadsheets than I do looking at my wife’s face. Discord eats at my time and my phone battery more than any other thing has since I joined this league.
What I am trying to say is that this league, while good at its core, is at times exhausting, and I wanted to use this space to reflect on that, and remind people how important it is to find healthy ways to enjoy this league. I will not pretend that I have not had fun here, but I also cannot in good faith pretend that my league involvement has always been healthy. I think many of us have been in this same boat, and posting this is a means of reminding all of our users, old and new, that it is important to be constantly examining how you feel about this league, and how the league affects you, to make sure you are having a healthy and happy experience here. Please be kind to yourself.
I want to be exceedingly clear: I have so, so much love for this league. I believe this league has, at the end of the day, been a net positive part of my life. I have met some people, many people, who I would call dear friends here. (No, I do not feel any inclination to give a more detailed account of who these people are; I cannot stop those who choose to go that route, but my people know exactly who they are and how I feel.) And, truly, I have grown as a result of being a member of this league. So, I will say it again: I have a ton of love for this league, and, at the end of the day, the league means a great deal to me as a positive element of my life.
Now, returning to my original point: I am tired. That, of course, is not all the fault of this league; I am kept quite busy with law school, I am desperately behind in my research work, I am slowly and nervously working towards submitting an application for a political science PhD program, and I am newly married, so my life is excessively hectic as a general matter. That said, I cannot and will not pretend that this league, at times, is draining. Perhaps this is a result of my approach; I have been a general manager for eight of my now ten seasons here and spent nine as a member of our update team. Some weeks I think I spend more time looking at league-related spreadsheets than I do looking at my wife’s face. Discord eats at my time and my phone battery more than any other thing has since I joined this league.
What I am trying to say is that this league, while good at its core, is at times exhausting, and I wanted to use this space to reflect on that, and remind people how important it is to find healthy ways to enjoy this league. I will not pretend that I have not had fun here, but I also cannot in good faith pretend that my league involvement has always been healthy. I think many of us have been in this same boat, and posting this is a means of reminding all of our users, old and new, that it is important to be constantly examining how you feel about this league, and how the league affects you, to make sure you are having a healthy and happy experience here. Please be kind to yourself.
